WWW Wednesday (9/2/2020)

Hey everyone and happy Wednesday! We’re halfway through the week, and just started a new month… now isn’t that something? So I finished some books, and then started some books, (as I tend to do), but there’s been enough of a change in my reading that I believe a WWW Wednesday post is warranted.

Originally, this was hosted by A Daily Rhythm but has been revived by Sam from Taking on a World of Words. I found it through Willow Writes and Reads‘ blog.

On that note, let’s talk books!

What I’ve Recently Read:

I finally finished Inclusify! In my last WWW Wednesday, I discussed how the first half of the book, although filled with interesting statistics and studies, didn’t necessarily tell me anything that I wasn’t already aware of. However, after reading through the second half of the book, I definitely learned some new ways to look at how concepts such as “White Knighting” can harm a company’s attempt to embrace diversity within their office. There is also a term Dr. Johnson uses to describe those who identify with a minority group, but are similar to a “White Knight” which is a “Shepherd”. The problem with being a “Shepherd” is that even though you may be hiring someone based on their skills, if you both identify with a minority group, others who may work in the company may think that’s the main reason you hired who you did. A lot of this can be fixed through good communication and being transparent about your hiring process. For example, if when you look at resumes you choose not to see the name of the applicant, and are only judging them based on their experience, this should be something that should be known in the office.

Overall, Inclusify is definitely a must-read for those in management or C-Suite positions, but even if you aren’t, I swould still recommend reading it, mostly because it can help you reflect on how your perspective of the world influences your biases, whether in the work place or in your personal life.

I also finished The 7 1/2 Deaths of Evelyn Hardcastle a while ago, and overall, I really enjoyed it. Without giving too much away, the ending was a bit out there, and definitely not what I was expecting, but in a good way. If you’re looking for a good murder mystery book with a twist, I still recommend checking this out.

What I’m Currently Reading:

Since Banned Book Week is at the end of this month (09/27-10/3), I decided to read The Color Purple and Fahrenheit 451 for some posts I’m writing for that particular week. Right now, I am around 19 pages into The Color Purple and 48 pages into Fahrenheit 451. For books that are considered classics, I’m moving through them at a decent pace, which is a good sign for me πŸ˜‚

What I Plan on Reading:

Now that I’m finished reading Inclusify, I want to get back to reading Why Are All the Black Kids Sitting Together in the Cafeteria: And Other Conversations About Race. I made it about 16 pages in before taking a break, so I may just completely start over from the beginning, but I’m excited to start reading it again!

I also recently bought a copy of the book Of Fire and Stars, which I’ve had my eyes on for awhile. Of Fire and Stars follows Princess Dennaleia as she prepares to marry to seal an alliance between her kingdom and the kingdom of Mynaria, and she is to be taught by her betrothed’s sister, Princess Amaranthine. However, an assassination rocks the kingdom, leading to Dennaleia and Amaranthine to team up in an attempt to find the culprit, and them realizing their friendship maybe growing into something more. It sounds like a cute story (besides the assassination part), and honestly? A cute story is what I need right now πŸ˜‚ Hopefully this lives up to my expecations!

That’s all I have for today! Let me know what you’re currently reading, or if you just finished a book, did you enjoy it?

On that note, I will see you next week with a new post! Have a good rest of your week!


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Poetry Prompt #6

Hello everyone, and welcome to the last Monday of August! It’s crazy how fast this month flew by 😱

Anyways, as it’s a new week, it’s time for another Poetry Prompt! This one is courtesy of my Write the Poem journal, and I’ll go ahead and post the prompt below:

Prompt:Word Associations
Anger Acrimony

Before I go any further, I want to mention that this month, I won’t be doing my regular Friday posts, because I’m working on/preparing a personal project which will be coming out next month. Unless I feel like posting something on Friday, there’s only going to be Monday and Wednesday posts.

Now that we got that out of the way, here’s what I came up with for this prompt. Enjoy!

It curls in the pit of your stomach,

Resting until the moment is right.

You’ll know when it is,

As it bubbles up inside,

Trying to push itself out of your body.

An explosion of rage,

Striking everyone around you.

This is what you keep hidden,

Deep within your soul,

Scared of its intensity,

Of how it will be expressed.

So you push it back down,

Fight against it,

Suppressing it,

Burying it down far enough,

That no one can awaken it,

That fury which poisons you.

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Let’s Talk

With everything happening this week concerning Jacob Blake and the Kenosha shooting, I think it’s a good time to make another post highlighting how you can help with the Black Lives Matter movement.

It may seem as though everyone is shouting into a void, where the only people truly listening are those who agree with them. It may seems as though everything is hopeless, and that nothing is going to change.

However, by continuing the conversation, and extending it beyond the relationship between police and Black Americans, it will make it harder to ignore the change still necessary in the United States. We might even be more open to thinking about the history of oppression for other minority groups in the United States.

Should we have already been having these conversations? Yes, we should have. But now is as good of a time as ever to educate yourself, and find ways to support. This is also a reminder that we shouldn’t only be supportive when there is pain in the Black community, but also be there for the celebrations of joy. This is something that should be a year round effort, not just when people are hurt or killed (A sentiment which applies to any cause).


A couple articles/posts summarizing the incident with Jacob Blake (no video):



Summary of the Kenosha Shooting:


A Twitter thread showing different cases of people who aren’t protester’s instigating at various protests around the country:

Also, they’re still protesting in Louisville, KY for justice for Breonna Taylor:


Twitter Post with Data revolving around #PublishingPaidMe:

Twitter Post Discussing the real estate market and how race can affect housing prices. I also recommend reading through the thread, as it has additional resources concerning this particular topic:

Thread of books by Black authors that came out in July (I talked about reading The Year of the Witching for Fortnight Frights in October, and I’m super excited about it!):

Ways to Support:

A couple different updated carrd’s of global issues :



I recommend checking out this thread for updated resources for more updated resources:

Here are the links to my past two blog posts with resources and ways you can help out:

The First Post: https://readingandwritingthroughlife.com/2020/06/05/what-can-you-do-to-help-as-an-ally/

The Second Post: https://readingandwritingthroughlife.com/2020/06/23/how-to-help-as-an-ally-for-black-lives-matter-pt-2/

If you are looking to support independent bookstores, here is a graphic from O Magazine (Oprah’s magazine) made in honor of Independent Bookstore Day:

I’ll end this post with this graphic:

Tate, J., Jenkins J., & Rich, S.(2020, May 26). 2019 Police Shooting Database. Washington Post.
United States Census Bureau. ACS Demographic and Housing Estimates
Wikipedia. List of killings by law enforcement officers by country (As appearing on May 29, 2020)
The chart is incomplete. The author removed the top of the chart to put US conditions in context.
Venezuela tops the chart with 1633 (I found this on Reddit)

Fortnight Frights Reading Challenge (Tentative) TBR! (Hosted by The Artisan Geek)

Yesterday, The Artisan Geek made her official announcement video about Fortnight Frights, which I plan on participating in! The read-a-thon lasts from October 18-October 31 and was created to make horror a more accessible and inclusive genre, not just in reading more diverse authors and obscure stories, but also giving those who may think they’re not interested in the genre a chance to experience different books that fall into the genre.

Even though the read-a-thon isn’t until the end of October, the announcement video made me really excited, and I started figuring out what books to read for each prompt. Now that I have a pretty good idea of what I want to read, I decided to share my TBR… despite it still being August. πŸ˜‚

For the sake of context, here is the bingo card of the prompts for the read-a-thon:

You can either combine prompts and complete the whole card, or get an actual “BINGO” to complete the read-a-thon. I’m aiming for completing a “BINGO”, and if I have extra time, maybe try to complete as much of the card as possible… But we’ll see if I’m getting overly ambitious here πŸ˜‚

Anyways, here is what I’m planning on reading for the read-a-thon (List is subject to change, depending on if I am able to get my hands on a copy of the material or not):

With an Undead Character: Was it a Dream? by Guy de Maupassant

A Short Story: The Fall of the House of Usher by Edgar Allen Poe (I’ve only read The Telltale Heart by Poe, so I’m including this, since I’m not well-versed in his work πŸ˜‚)

A Poem: Goblin Market by Christina Rossetti

Written before 1960: The Bad Seed by William March (1954)

A Translated Piece: Drive Your Plow Over the Bones of the Dead by Olga Tokarczuk; Translated from Polish by Antonia Lloyd-Jones

A Horror Comic: The Jumbies by Tracey Baptiste or Skull-Face Bookseller Honda-San by Honda San

Dark Fantasy: Lobizano by Romina Garber

Written by a Black/African Author: The Year of the Witching by Alexis Henderson or The Gilda Stories by Jewelle L. Gomez

When we’re closer to the read-a-thon, I will post a final list, but I wanted to talk about this read-a-thon now, so that if you’re interested in participating, you have some time to figure out what you want to read. Another cool thing is that if you’re interested in participating in the read-a-thon, but not sure what books to read, there is a list of books Seji put together with titles that fit into different prompts, which you can check out here.

If you’re interested in learning more about Fortnight Frights, here are some links you can check out!

Here’s the Announcement Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2jxgrMudLig

Here’s the Fortnight Frights Homepage: https://www.theartisangeek.com/fortnightfrights

Here’s the Twitter account you can follow: https://twitter.com/FortnightFright


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Poetry Prompt #5

Hey everyone, I hope your Monday is going well!

Since it’s the start of a brand new week, it’s time to get the creative juices flowing a bit… because it’s Poetry Prompt #5! This weeks inspiration comes from the 125 Of The Best Poetry Writing Prompts For Poets post. And the prompt is *drumroll*….

When day becomes night.

On that note, here’s what I came up with, I hope you enjoy!

It’s a brightness that fades,

In order for us to move forward.

A light which goes,

From the sun to the moon.

Life moves on,

One bright moment,

To a darkness,

Which we already knew would come.

At the end of the day though,

We also know,

That a new light,

Will shine for us once again,

The next day.

That’s all for today, so thanks for reading and I will see you Wednesday with a new post!


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Amazon and Publishing

Hey everyone, and happy Friday! It’s the end of another week, and almost the end of August… it’s crazy how fast each month seems to be passing, even though this year feels as though it’s dragging on.
Anyways, today I want to discuss how Amazon’s business practices are affecting the publishing world, as it’s something I keep seeing pop up here and there. I watched a YouTube video recently from The Artisan Geek (Seji, who’s been one of my favorite Booktuber’s to watch right now) discussing the reasons she doesn’t like Amazon, and alternatives to popular Amazon owned platforms.

One such platform is GoodReads, which Amazon bought back in 2013, and hasn’t had much competition as a book review platform. I know there have been a lot of complaints about how GoodReads is outdated and can be a pain to use, but it was pretty much the only option for a book reviewing social media site (that’s well known). Now though, there is a beta version of a similar platform called the StoryGraph, which I’ve started using (if you want to sign up and follow, my username is enordhof87). I’ve been enjoying it so far, and it’s cool seeing how those who work on the site ask for feedback and implement it on the site. I heard about the site through Seji’s video, which is linked below, so if you’re interested in watching the video, here it is!

The reason why I think it’s important to discuss this topic is because the amount of influence Amazon has on many industries, not just publishing, is astounding. So many consumers and businesses use this platform, that even if there are issues within the company, it begs the question of, what are our alternatives? Where can we find a site that is as convenient and affordable as Amazon?

I think before we tackle that question, we should have a little background on Amazon and its influence in the publishing industry. I found the information through this Wikipedia article (Yeah I know, it’s Wikipedia, but it had the most organized timeline I could find), so if you want to see the entirety of the timeline, you can check it out there.

Amazon Timeline (Specifically with Books and Publishing)
1995Amazon is founded as an online bookseller to compete with companies such as Barnes and Noble, Borders, and other brick and mortar bookstores
Create Space launches Books On Demand, which makes it easier for self-published authors to distribute their books on Amazon
Amazon launches the Kindle
AbeBooks becomes a subsidiary of Amazon
Barnes and Noble announces the launch of the Nook eReader
Ebook sales outperform the sale of hardback books for the first time since the Kindle is launched
Borders files for Chapter 11 bankruptcy
2011Amazon buys Book Depository, a UK based online bookseller who delivers to over 160 different countries
Amazon acquires GoodReads
2014Amazon and Hachette books are in a legal battle concerning control over ebook prices.

Now that we have a better idea of its history, let’s discuss how Amazon has managed to uproot the publishing industry. Due to how Amazon runs its business, essentially, by selling their books at a loss, it’s harder for competitors who can’t afford to do that to even compete in the first place. Amazon has resources that a lot of smaller companies may not have, especially when it comes to marketing visibility and the amount of revenue Amazon earns from its other services such as Prime and AWS.

When discussing Amazon, we must talk about how its vertical integration tactics play a role in its success. In my opinion, Amazon’s ultimate goal never was to simply be the “world’s largest bookseller”; that was just a starting point. Amazon’s main focus is to own and operate through their own vertical channel. In the case of publishing, this means having a hand in the publication of books (which it has, as Amazon is a huge platform for self-publishing) as well as the distribution of books. If we also include how Amazon is the parent company of AbeBooks, this means Amazon is further inserting itself in the market of secondhand books, since you can trade in used books on Amazon’s actual platform as well. However, I still think most of the company’s power lies in its self-publishing business and its distribution.

Lets refer back at the legal battle between Amazon and Hachette books in 2014, as an example of how much power Amazon has with book distribution. Basically, the dispute was over which company would control the price of ebooks sold on Amazon. Since the platform being used was Amazon, the company wanted to keep the prices of ebooks at $9.99, no matter who wrote it. Hachette had their own pricing model when it came to ebooks, which was based on who wrote it, how well the book was doing, etc. While this was going on, Amazon would not allow preorders for books published by Hachette, give consumers an incentive to buy books from other publishing companies by offering better discounts, and would even delay shipping on Hachette books. This angered the authors who were with Hachette, as this obviously affected their sales, and it ultimately led to a letter published in the New York Times discussing the issue, and signed by big name authors such as Donna Tarte and Stephen King. In the end, Amazon gave Hachette control over the pricing of its ebooks, saying:

β€œ[There are] specific financial incentives for Hachette to deliver lower prices, which we believe will be a great win for readers and authors alike.”

Although Hachette won in the end, and the most outspoken authors were well known, we can’t forget how this most likely impacted smaller authors who are published through Hachette. When starting out as an author, you most likely aren’t getting large advances, so to make more money, you need to prove to the publishing house you are worth the investment (aka a bigger advance for future work) through your book sales. It also leads to the question: what happens if Amazon had this dispute with a smaller publishing house, that didn’t have the money to survive the tactics Amazon used against Hachette?

Another issue is that Amazon has gotten so big its tough to compete against, and therefore, leads to less options for consumers. With less competition, Amazon has a lot of control over various markets, which becomes a problem for consumers when there aren’t a lot of options to choose from besides Amazon. It’s easy to say consumers can go and shop at other places (in this case bookstores), but that overlooks how affordable Amazon is for a lot of people, especially during COVID-19 where many are struggling financially, and are shopping online more so than before.

Before I end this post, I want to mention there are other issues within the publishing industry, especially with how major publishing houses practice business. This isn’t supposed to be “large publishing companies are better than Amazon” because that takes away the importance of Amazon’s platform for self-published authors (as they can make up to 70% on royalties on ebooks, and 80% royalties on physical books, which as far as I’m aware, isn’t usually the case with large publishing houses). In the case of Amazon vs. Hachette, it’s a case of two big companies duking it out for control over ebook prices, and the authors dealing with the brunt of the impact.

In the end, we have to wonder: is there a single solution to solve all the problems in the publishing industry? The obvious answer is no, as Amazon is only one of many issues needing to be addressed. However, if we don’t talk about these issues, how is it supposed to get better? These discussions need to be had if we want to see any improvement.

What are your opinions on Amazon and its impact on the publishing industry? Do you think it’s not as bad, or even worse than what I mentioned here? What are other important issues you think should be addressed, in publishing in general? Let me know in the comments below!

Thanks for reading, and I will see you next week with a new post! Have a good weekend!


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Want to find other places to buy books, but not sure where to start your search? If you want alternatives to supporting Amazon, below is a list of other ways you can obtain books.

Indiebound: https://www.indiebound.org/

Indiebound is a great resource for finding books you can buy from your local indie bookstore. Fair warning, the books will be more expensive than Amazon, but if you’re able to afford it, this is a great alternative! They are also partnered with Bookshop (linked below) which is an online bookseller where you can buy books online, and a portion of the sale will go towards local bookstores.

Bookshop: https://bookshop.org/

Black Well’s (If you’re not in the USA): https://blackwells.co.uk/bookshop/home


With COVID-19, depending on where you live, libraries may not be fully open. There are branches which have ebooks/emagazines you can check out online, or you can sign up for an appointment for door-side service. Check out your libraries website to see what policies they have in place during COVID-19.

Free Little Libraries:

If you have seen little wooden boxes around where you live full of books, you most likely have a Free Little Library in your neighborhood. I’ve seen them in neighborhoods, outdoor malls, and other public spaces.

People can drop off books they don’t want anymore, and pick up a book they haven’t read. I’ve found some awesome books through Free Little Libraries, from ARC’s that you aren’t supposed to sell, to the copy of Edgar Allen Poe’s work that I mention in my Bookshelf Tour Tag. It’s also a great place to find books from local authors, as I know it’s some place they’ll drop off extra copies of their books for readers to enjoy.


For those not familiar with horizontal and vertical integration, these are terms used in the business world in relation to the value chain. Vertical integration refers to the acquisition of companies in the production process of the same industry. This is typically done to strengthen the company’s supply chain. In other words, a company might acquire another company that produces an input product, or is basically “before” the buying company in the supply chain (backward integration) or buys a company involved in post production, or is “after” it in the supply chain (forward integration). Amazon has already done this by integrating into hardware and producing the Kindle Fire.

Horizontal integration refers to all the companies within the same level of the value chain, and in the same industry. (For example, if Whole Foods were to buy Trader Joe’s, that would be a horizontal integration, since they are both retail grocery stores).


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Tarver, E. (2020, March 13). Horizontal vs. Vertical Integration: What’s the Difference? Retrieved August 21, 2020, from https://www.investopedia.com/ask/answers/051315/what-difference-between-horizontal-integration-and-vertical-integration.asp

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Reading Update (8/19/2020)

Hey everyone, I hope the week has been treating you well!

I’m not doing a WWW Wednesday today because I’m still reading the same books I was last week, so there’s no point really in doing that, in my opinionπŸ˜… Instead, I’ll do a quick little update about where I am currently in each book, and my thoughts on what I’ve read so far.

So sit back, relax, and I hope you enjoy this casual little reading update πŸ˜‰


I am currently halfway through, and I’ve been reading about a chapter a night. Personally, this book is definitely a must read for anyone interested in management or wanting to learn how to create better team dynamics, and since the language of the book is more casual, as opposed to academic, it’s a better educational tool for a wider audience. Although a lot of the studies and examples are focused on business and corporate settings,I could see how it can relate to other fields, especially education (mostly I’m thinking about the dreaded group projects). There are examples and tidbits here and there that peaked my interest, but so far, a lot of what is being explained in the book isn’t “revolutionary” is the best way I can think of describing it. I’m not learning anything new necessarily, although I do appreciate knowing about more studies and research which back up what I’ve observed.

One thing I really like about the book is how it is organized. There are several different “archetypes” that Dr. Johnson discusses, and there are two chapters dedicated to each one. The first chapter describes what the archetype is, and how it can work against those who are trying to create a more diverse and inclusive workplace. The second chapter provides actionable things you can do to combat it, which is extremely important in any sort of conversation revolving around personal growth. It’s hard realizing something you’re doing is harmful, but what can be even more difficult is figuring out how you can change for the better, and putting it into action.

Other than that, I’ll see how the second half of the book is, and what information I might glean from it.

The 7 1/2 Deaths of Evelyn Hardcastle:

I’m also about half way through this book as well, and I’ve honestly been enjoying the story a lot! It’s a good murder mystery novel, and I’ve been in the mood to read something spooky or mysterious, so this is perfect. For a brief summary, The 7 1/2 Deaths of Evelyn Hardcastle follows Aiden Bishop as he tries to solve the mystery of Evelyn’s murder during the weekend of her celebration returning from Paris. However, Aiden repeats the day Evelyn is murdered, and not only that, he experiences the day through different people at Blackheath. Through each person he inhabits (or as he says, each “host”), he learns more about the secrets of those visiting Blackheath Manor, and how they all play a part in Evelyn’s death.

I’ve been very invested in the novel, and trying to see how each new piece of information that Aiden learns builds up to the ending. Another aspect I enjoy is how the chapters are divided between the different guests and servants Aiden inhabits throughout the story. I also love the concept of solving a murder by gathering information using various tactics based on the person whose body Aiden is inhabiting, and learning how each character is tied to Evelyn’s murder. I don’t want to give too much away, as I think it’s better to go into murder mystery books with knowing less, so I’ll leave it at that for now.

In other words, I can’t wait to see how the story ends, and I definitely recommend checking out this book if you are looking for a good murder mystery to dive into.

Why Are All the Black Kids Sitting Together in the Cafeteria:

I’m only 16 pages in, and I think I’m going to put it aside for now, until after I’m finished with Inclusify. Since I’m not too far into it, I don’t have too much to comment on, if I’m going to be honest πŸ˜… Although, just within those sixteen pages, there’s been great information on the history of racial issues within the housing market (especially housing covenants) as well as affirmative action and other issues of race within education, so I can’t wait to read further!

However, I think I’ll get more out of it when I’m not dividing my reading time between two other books. Once I’m able to focus on it more and get a little further in, I’ll update y’all with a more in-depth opinion!

That’s about all I have for today, thanks for reading and I will see you Friday with a new post!


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Poetry Prompt #4

Happy Monday everyone! Hopefully you’re having a good start to your week! If not, at least you have the rest of the week for it to get better… πŸ€·β€β™‚οΈ Trying to work on being more positive over hereπŸ˜‚

Anyways, as it’s the beginning of a new week, that means it’s time for another poetry prompt. For this time around, I’m going to be using a prompt from my Write the Poem notebook, which is:

Prompt:Word Associations:

Alright, here’s what I came up with, I hope you enjoy it!

What precious things I have found,

Wandering down this path,

Not sure where I was going,

But knowing I simply wanted to move forward.

The people I’ve met,

The experiences I’ve had,

The lessons I’ve learned,

I never would have known otherwise.

At this point,

All I have to say to myself is a simple,

Thank you.

Thank you for choosing to go on,

Even when I didn’t know what that meant,

Where that would be,

Who that would be with.

Thank you for taking those chances,

Even though they would knock me


And lead me to wonder,

“What was I thinking?”

Thank you,

For simply trusting in myself,

Even though I didn’t realize,

That’s what I was doing at the time.

In the end,

I had enough faith in myself,

To handle the consequences,

No matter what they were.

If you want to try it out yourself, feel free to share it in the comments below, I’d love to see what you come up with!

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I Had a Specific Thought To Address… But now I’m Rambling About Life

Hello everyone, and happy Friday! I hope you made it through the week okay!

Also, the quote in my featured image here is from ,Said the Shotgun to the Head. by Saul Williams. It’s one of my favorite quotes from the collection, and I think it’s pretty relevant to what I want to chat about today.

Basically, I’ve been thinking about life a lot, as of late. What my life has been so far, what I’ve been doing to improve my life and make myself happier etc. etc.

Earlier this week, I was on YouTube, messing around as usual, when I came upon a video created by Evelyn From The Internets titled “The Most Basic Birthday GRWM You’ve Ever Seen πŸŽ‚ πŸ‘ΆπŸΏ”. In this video, she mentions how in her late 20’s, she realized how life isn’t just going to give you experiences, you have to intentionally go out and seek these life experiences. This was a very brief point in her video, but it stuck with me the most, because I noticed how passively I was living my life. Most of the time, I would just let things happen to me, and not necessarily pursue experiences I was interested in. There were times when I would actually pursue things, and it made me so happy, making the decision to do something simply because I wanted to, and following through with it. However, as I’ve been getting older, I’ve realized it’s something I have been doing less of, especially after graduating from college. It made me realize how if I want anything in life really, I have to be the one to go after it.

I know, that sounds stupid and obvious, but hear me out here.

In school, we are put in an environment where we meet other people, whether we want to or not. It was easier to join clubs, or find hobbies you were interested in, as it’s encouraged in a school setting (especially if it looks good on a college app). Once you graduate and get a job, though, where do you find a similar kind of setting? What (or who) is telling you to try a new hobby, just for the sake of it, not necessarily to make money or to become an expert? Who is telling you to make new friends, fall in love and travel the world? Where are you going to meet all these people to have these experiences with?

I’ve seen a few people around my age complain about how hard it is to make friends or just meet new people after leaving school, and honestly I kind of agree. It can be really difficult to find people who you want to actually hang out with, especially if you don’t actively go out and find places to meet people. You can try befriending your coworkers, but depending on where you work, this may not always be a great option. At this point in life, the main person who plays a part in whether or not you meet new people, or experience new things, is you. For me personally, after graduating college and moving back home, I wasn’t doing much outside of working. None of my friends that I kept in touched with lived back home at the time, and I didn’t have any hobbies besides reading (which I love reading, but at a certain point, there’s only so much reading you can do).

So, I started figuring out what else I wanted to do with my life, besides work. I picked up writing again, I was saying yes to more experiences, made quite a few mistakes, and kept putting myself out there a bit more. I changed jobs a few times, and finally found a job where I can perfectly balance working towards my future career goals, and still be earning money so I can move out on my own.

Then the pandemic hit.

I was furloughed from my job, and for the most part, it seems as though life is being put on hold, because no one knows what the future will hold. For the most part, I haven’t left my house, because there really is no reason for me to, and this has put me in a weird… place I guess is the best word. Time is still moving forward, life is still happening, but I feel as though I’m at a standstill, unable to move forward, or anywhere really.

It’s made me re-evaluate my goals, and how can I keep having new life experiences, without putting my family in danger. I’ve found ways to keep having new experiences, learning from them, and continue to grow, while not putting safety on the back burner. I joined a virtual book club through my university, I kept up with my therapy appointments, I’m pursuing a career as a freelance writer, I’ve been working more on maintaining a workout routine and I’m dedicating more time to this blog.

And you want to know what the crazy thing is?

I still find it so easy to sit back and say, “Wow, I haven’t really done anything with my life this year.”

Why is that? Why am I pushing aside all these things I know I’m actively working on, and say I’m not doing anything?

Because… I’m not treating myself the way I deserve to be treated. Not just that, but I know that I am worthy of treating myself right, despite of mistakes I made in the past, or people I hurt. At the end of the day, because I didn’t know how to be nice and kind to myself, it made it easier for me to lash out and hurt those who I care about.

I’m fortunate enough to be able to go to therapy, and recognize I need to do it, at least for right now. Looking back on my life, I can now see a bit better how things I’ve internalized and experienced have hurt me, and rather than trying to process and heal, I would be negative towards myself. I embraced negativity to the point I didn’t even realize that’s what I was doing. As a result, I hurt people I cared about, because I was hurting myself, in a way. After all, there’s a reason why the saying, “Hurt people, hurt people”… it’s because it’s true.

Now that I’ve taken the time to actually process these things that I’ve internalized, and have actively been working on re framing my thinking, I feel more of a change in myself. Obviously, I’m not perfect, and I still have my moments, but I noticed a shift in my everyday behavior. For once, I took the time to work on myself, I told myself that I wanted to be different, and I wanted to be better, and I did what I needed to do to fix it. I also want to say, because of these experiences I’ve had, because of this pain I’ve dealt with, I’ve tried to make sure I don’t hurt other people in the same way I’ve been hurt. Along with my pain causing me to not always do the right thing, it’s also, in a way, helped lead me to do the right thing in other situations. People are multifaceted, and there is more than just “good person” and “bad person”. There’s so much grey in between, because we as humans are complicated, and therefore have a tendency to make life complicated.

Through all of this, I noticed how much my own negative self talk was ingrained in me (I know, my therapist is going to be so happy hearing me say that… or write it down I guess). I had grown so used to being negative towards myself, that I tricked myself into thinking that it was reality. Are there bad things happening in the world right now?

Hell yeah there is.

But, it’s also important to remember, there are many good things happening in conjunction with these bad things, even if it’s hard to see right now. The current state of affairs, and maybe even what’s happening in your life right now, may seem overwhelming and as though they will swallow you whole without a second thought. So what should you do? How can things get better?

We need to accept the fact that life is full of good and bad things, and even though we can’t fix everything wrong with the world, we can still do our part. However, if you don’t take care of yourself, it’ll be that much harder to do your part, whatever that maybe. So, take a step back and breathe. Step away from social media. Step away from the news. Remind yourself of all the good things in the world, that make taking on the bad things worth it in the end. That’s the best advice I can give, considering the fact I’m not a licensed therapist, psychologist, life coach or anything like that, I’m simply someone who has thought about life and likes to share my thoughts.

Now you may be asking, “What’s the main takeaway from this whole post?”

Life is one of those things where it seems like no matter what you do, you won’t get it right. We all have insecurities, whether big or small, that make us think we’re not as good as other people. All of us have been hurt, and have hurt other people because of it. Life is messy, but this is our life, and now is the time to really think about what you want to make of it. Whether it’s on a personal note, a political note, or on a global scale, we are on the brink of change, and we have more say in whether it’s a good change or a bad one.

If you read through this long, ramble filled post, thank you! I know there was quite a bit to read (and let’s be honest, I was probably jumping from one thought to the next), but ya know, this is my blog and I’ll jump from one thought to the next if I want to πŸ˜‚ You’ll just have the fun job of trying to keep up and make sense of it!

Anyways, thanks again for reading, and I hope y’all have a good weekend! See ya next Monday with a new post!


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WWW Wednesday (08/12/2020)

Hello everyone, and happy Wednesday! Hopefully your week has been going smoothly, but if not, at least you’re halfway to the weekend! You got this πŸ‘Œ

Now that I got my mini motivational pep talk out of the way, it’s time to do another round of WWW Wednesday. I’ve actually finished a couple books, and started some new ones, so I have a lot to talk about!

Originally, this was hosted by A Daily Rhythm but has been revived by Sam from Taking on a World of Words. I found it through Willow Writes and Reads‘ blog.

On that note, let’s talk about books ✌

What I’ve recently read:

So… I finally finished An Unkindness of Ghosts! I know I haven’t talked to much about the book while reading it, but now that I’m finished, I have a lot more to say!

Plot wise, An Unkindness of Ghosts takes place after the Earth becomes uninhabitable, and the HSS Matilda flies off to the Promised Land. Even though this is a sci-fi novel, and I’m not a huge sci-fi reader, I still really enjoyed it! It’s one of those books, where if you’re interested in reading it, but hesitant because you aren’t very interested in the sci-fi genre, I’d recommend checking it out anyway.

The main aspect I enjoyed about the story were the characters. They were flawed, and seemed more like real people than simply characters in a fictional story. I may have mentioned this before on here, but I loved reading from the Aster’s perspective, especially as she is neuroatypical and it was interesting seeing how this played a part in her perception of life on the Matilda. I also like how the book dedicates a chapter here and there to those closest to Aster. I’ve read books in the past where they include random POV’s that I didn’t find relevant to the story, but in An Unkindness of Ghosts, I felt the additional perspectives added another layer to the story and enhanced it in one way or another.

The second book I finished reading is Monday’s Not Coming by Tiffany D. Jackson. Claudia is worried when her best friend, Monday Charles, doesn’t show up on the first day of school, especially after not hearing from her the entire summer. Even though Monday is missing, Claudia seems to be the only one who cares, so she sets out to find Monday, one way or another.

Overall, I loved the story, and how it was divided between the present and past, based on the month. I’m not sure how I feel about the ending though, as the plot twist kind of distracted me from the big reveal, but that’s more of a “me” thing than anything else. The story was paced really well, and there was a good build up to the ending also. I finished it pretty quickly, and was sucked into the story so I had to see what would happen. If you like YA mystery/thriller stories, I definitely would recommend checking out Monday’s Not Coming.

What I’m currently reading:

I started reading Inclusify for my book club, and I’m about a couple chapters into the book. So far, I’ve found the book easy to read, as the author writes about her research in a way that’s easy for anyone to understand, no matter how much research-esque non-fiction books you’ve read. As I’ve said, I’m not that far into the book, so I can’t say whether or not I find her research ground-breaking, but I’m interested to read more about her research.

I also decided to start reading Why Are all the Black Kids Sitting Together in the Cafeteria by Beverly Daniel Tatum PHD. After reading the introduction to Inclusify, I realized there were similar topics discussed in these books. Although in WAATBKSTITC, it discusses this in the context of children and education, while Inclusify frames it in the context of management and the workplace. I think it would be interesting to read these in tandem, as it can give a more complete perspective on how challenges in the workplace with diversity can start as early as in the classroom. I want to add that WAATBKSTITC focuses mainly on race and education, and I want to try and find a good book that focuses on sex and education, to balance it out. If you have any suggestions, please let me know!

Along with those two books, I started The 7 1/2 Deaths of Evelyn Hardcastle by Stuart Turton. Evelyn Hardcastle will continue die everyday until Aiden Bishop solves her murder and breaks the cycle. However, he keeps waking up in the bodies of different guests at Blackhearth Manor each day, and receives varying degrees of help from the hosts. I honestly started reading this book, because the title made me think of The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo by Taylor Jenkins Reid, even though these two books have nothing in common πŸ˜‚ I really enjoy the concept of the book, and the few chapters I’ve read are peaking my interest enough to continue to the end.

What I plan on reading:

If I plan on reading anymore books, I’m going to go with a book that’s a bit lighter, and easier to digest for those nights when I need to give my brain a break… because I’ll probably need it πŸ˜‚ Most likely, it will be one of the other books I mentioned in my previous WWW Wednesday posts (Which you can check out here or here), or maybe something else entirely, who knows πŸ€·β€β™‚οΈ I’m definitely a mood reader, so we’ll see what I feel like diving into, or if I even want to dive into anything at all. Since I’m working through three books right now, I’m not thinking too much about what I want to read next, if I’m going to be honest.

That’s all I have for today folks! Have you read any of these books, and if so, did you enjoy them? What are you currently reading, or thinking of reading? Let me know down below, as I’d love to hear about it!

On that note, thanks for reading through today’s post, and I’ll see you on Friday with something new!


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