Hey everyone, guess what?
I am returning to this blog, and ending my hiatus! 😁🎉
In my last update, I mentioned having issues with my mental health. Although I still have my issues, I am in a much better space than I was at the beginning of the year. I started seeing a therapist, who is helping me find direction in my life, which has helped give me a boost of confidence I haven’t felt in a while. I am more confident about myself and the path I am heading down. I also dyed my hair again, and WOW was it a much needed change!
However, during this hiatus, my long term relationship did end on Valentine’s day. It’s strange how the realization hits you in waves; one minute you are fine, living your life, then you’re suddenly hit with the reminder that someone who was such an important part of your life, isn’t there anymore.
Even though the break up is painful, because of my new found confidence, I am in a place where the idea of being single and focusing on myself doesn’t sound too bad. After graduating from college, I felt as though I’ve been losing myself in one way or another. My independence faded away, my motivation to work towards a future and create goals for myself disappeared, and I became a shadow of who I used to be.
As part of my therapy, I had to create SMART goals for myself to work towards for the next year, then three years from now, and finally, five years from now. As I thought of my goals, I asked myself some questions:
Why am I here, living this life, if I have nothing driving me every single day?
What is my purpose?
What is it that will make me, Erin, happy?
To answer this question, I did what any person in this modern day would do: I Googled it.
After typing in, “how to figure out my goals in life”, and scrolling through the results, I found this post:
As I read through it, everything started falling into place for me. I found some concrete things I could use to work towards answering that question of, “What is my purpose?”
At this point, I figure, “You know what, why not try it?”
Once I decided that, I realized this is the direction I want to take my blog. I am going to document my journey towards finding my purpose. My writing is an important part of my life, so how could I not find some way to incorporate it? I want to start posting weekly updates about where I am when it comes to this path for myself, and even if no one but me will read this, I will have something to look back on years from now, to see how far I have come.
This may have been a painful start to the new year, but now I am more determined than ever to give my writing priority, dare to dream and really sit down to set goals for myself. Now is as good a time as any to throw all my time and energy into focusing on me and figuring out how to accomplish my SMART goals I’ve set.
Here’s to the start of a new year, a new decade, and a new chance for a fresh start.
Thank you for reading, and I will see you next week with a new post 😉
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